Rainbow

I just lost two hours of this happy day.
About 1 dl saltwater.
Alot of frustration that got stuck in my car and followed me about an hour in the car...two hours...or maybe is still following me a bit...
I lost 2900kr that I don`t really have...
I lost some confidense...alittle pride...
I feel sooo dissapointed in myself...

The second speed ticked in my life...

And is`s soo frustrating, because it is totally my fault.
I didn`t do it on purpose..but I did it!
I was driving sooo carefully like in 50 km/h down a long hill(the limit was 6okm/h), in the 3 gear..and at the end of the hill I speeded up to get forward...and the speed limit was 60...and then 30seconds later a police man stoped me and told me I had been crossing the speed limit...75km/h...
A shot in my heart!
If I had only been alittle more careful....
and I can`t blame anything because it was my fault ...I crossed the limit..

He asked me some questions about my life..
I drove off with the speed ticket in my hand and then the tears came ...
And there is nowhere I can trow away the frustration, I can`t blame anything...only myself.

I drove and drove and in front of me it was a BIG clear rainbow.
I tried to find some reasons for this unluckyness..
Did I need to learn a lesson?
I looked at the rainbow and tried to find something in it.
I know it`s a sign for hope and God put it on the sky as a promise to us.

I totally don`t have money for a speed ticket these days..it`s sooo waste...
and I thougt about the hours I have worked this month to get enough money for the rent...the ticket is like four days of work...
I tried not to think about it...but I thought that I don`t really work for the money,well I need it for the rent of cause, but the working days have been really fun for me. Because I enjoy working...

Well I don`t know...
I belive that God has promised hope for me, hope that he will provide me even though I do mistakes some times...

Now I will just pay that stupid ticket, forgive myself and be more careful next time.
And I now also have more respect for the people who drives really slow in the traffic...maybe they just got a speed ticket...