
Well it´s funny...I had a very nice experience.
I´ve had some really bad days, felt like giving up on everything. Couldn´t see the point of me being here. Felt like everything I did was wrong. My cold was never getting better and I could´t accomplish anything good. I was just thinking sooo much negative. Wanted to make a list and write down all the things I could do if I went back to Norway. Felt I was attacked by negativity. Like "GIVE UP! GIVE UP! GO HOME!"
And everyday felt alittle bit worse...the feeling of giving up was just building up.
I didn´t care about the time or appointments, couldn´t smile or look people in the eyes..was just fed up!
Wanted to buy a teapot, a teapot that would give me a nice feeling, so I finally found it , a blue one with a little brown. I also bought some big teacups I have wanted to buy for little while.
Went to work and had a pretty bad day..inside.
Went home, cried and cried and asked my friends in Norway to pray for me. Went to sleep and the next morning I tryed to be quick on getting up.
I boiled some water and filled up the teapot. Took my Bible, and even thought I didn´t really had an interest in reading it, I just did it. I just felt like I had to. I read and read, it was not interesting at all and I don´t know where I read, but something happened inside me while I was reading...it was soo strange...all of a sudden I started to feel ok, I kept on reading , filling me up with the words. It was like all the negativity just dissapered..and I was filled with hope. And strength.And positive thoughts.
I´m not giving up! Nothing can pull me down! I know God wants me to be here, I don´t really know why, but I don´t need to know why. I just need to know that God has the control, And I know that. And that gives me peace in my heart.
This book is shurely amazing. I LOVE IT!!!
Gud er kul!
And by the way, look at this cool amazing plastic bag. I´ve had it for years. I even brought it to Japan. Bought it in a little town in Sweeden called Ludvika for about four-five years ago. It´s from a litte amazing candy shop called "Godismonsteret" that now doesn´t exist anymore. But I once bought 1kg candy there. I will never forget!